Few days ago, I went to shopping with Jing Yin and Esther at 1 Utama and I get some make up stuffs at Etude House. To my surprise, finally the highlighter has arrived!!! It is such a lucky day for us because we've been waiting so long for it!!! Without further ado, presenting the famous highlighter~~~
CODE B - Bright Eyes Highlighter (RM 35.91 after 20% discount)
The brush is so soft and just press the pink tip, the highlighter will come out on the brush. It's very easy ^^
DREAM ON FOUNDATION - Slim & Cover #1 Light Beige (RM 24.95 after 50% discount)
This is the second time I bought foundation. The first time, I bought elianto's foundation and I just use a few times. It's a #2 natural color. It's ok when I apply it but it some how gets darker than my own skin tone after few hours. Like what people say, "De-oxidise". I'm not really favourite it and now I just apply BB cream. Back to the foundation ^^ I hope this time I bought the right one and it's #1 and hope it does not "de-oxidise" >.< Oh~ It smells really really nice ^^
Eyelash Curler - Silicon Type (RM 4.15 after 40% discount) *ALL ASSECORIES HAVE 40% DISCOUNT!!!
I really meant to buy the premium eyelash curler since it had 40% discount on all assecories but I don't see the eyelash curler T.T I guess it's sold out.
That's the few things I bought on that day. Now, here are a few stuffs that I previously bought.
OH~ M'EYE LASH - TOP COAT (RM 15.00++ after 20% discount - current year end promotion. I've forgot I bought it for how much =P)
It's a very good make up piece. For a single eyelid like me, my eyelashes naturally face down. Eventhough I curl it, it won't last for a long time. When it happened, the mascara that I applied will smeared on my lower eye part. This top coat is amazing. It not only laminate the mascara, it also help to hold the lashes on its place after curled.
STYLING EYE LINER - White (RM 12.00++)
PETIT DARLING - Black Eye Shadow (RM 9.90)
It's very pigmented. Just apply a little, you can see the color.
DEAR DARLING ULTRA SHINE LIPS -Lip Stick #14 Strawberry Milk (RM 28.00++ after 20% discount)
I really love this lip stick. It became my favourite one because of the color and it does taste/smell like strawberry ^^
That's the end of my entry and before I chaoz~~~ Here's something funny that I wants to share which happens yesterday when Jing Yin and I went to sing k at Greenbox.
I hope it really tickles you ^^ MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Tomorrow going to share some Christas related pictures
Secret Notes
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Omigosh!!!
Yeap. Just like what my title represents what I'm feeling right now. IT'S BEEN 7 MONTHS LONG!!! That I didn't bloggy >.< Actually there's so many things happen to me during this period of time but I didn't blog it. What a waste babe~ Never mind that. Tomorrow I'll be updating some pictures of some new stuffs I'd get at Etude House. ^^
Now I jinja need my beauty sleep liao although I still have a few episodes of SJM at Zhong Yi Da Ge Da not yet watch. Zooooooom~~ to watch and pali sleep. Now already 4.30 am >.< Nite nitezzzz~
Now I jinja need my beauty sleep liao although I still have a few episodes of SJM at Zhong Yi Da Ge Da not yet watch. Zooooooom~~ to watch and pali sleep. Now already 4.30 am >.< Nite nitezzzz~
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
TVXQ's SeolLim's CF
OMG!!!! Isn't it cute?? Micky was so darn cute. He can be funny when he wants to and he can be charismatic and touching when he performs Brian McKnight's One Last Cry. They were chosen to be the spokesperson because they are very popular group both in Japan and Korea.
Currently, they are holding their 4th Live Arena Tour concert in Japan with their 4th Japanese album entitled The Secret Code. ARRGGHH!!! Wish I can be there to watch the concert. They are singing LIVE!!! However, the Dolphin Xiah Junsu got injured while rehearsing and he needs to sit on a wheelchair to perform. Pity him~
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
LOVE STORY (Taylor Swift) meets VIVA LA VIDA (Coldplay)
This piece of composition was a superb ones. It was recommended by Christine. When I listen to it, I don't know why I feel quite relax and just sit back and listen to it. Besides, I'm very impress with their skills. It was really really fast fast and with energy. So, this is a recommended composition.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
STUPIAK!!!!
Why am I soooooooo S.T.U.P.I.D !!!!!!!
Yesterday went to PJ for the interview of study trip to Korea and I messed up/ screwed up the whole interview!!!
Actually I've already forgotten about the whole study trip thingy because the staff didn't call me the day before and ask me to go for the interview. Out of a sudden, they called me in the morning of the interview day and ask me to go for the interview. I was actually sleeping that time and I got so damn happy that I was chosen to go for the interview. I ask them how many people were chosen for this interview, and they say 4 people from the Klang Valley which means 4 from the PJ, Setapak and Sg Long campus and I was 1 of the lucky 4!!! I've become more happy!! I even screamed out that gives my mom a shocked. And it makes me totally cannot sleep back.
I really wanted to go to Korea so badly. Now, there's a chance appear in front of me sure I will grab it. But I've screwed it!!!
The interview, I thought it should be asking about the reasons why I wanted to join this study programme and so on but it turns out to be asking the damn UTAR stuff like who's the president, who's the dean of FAM, when did UTAR established, how many courses did FAM offer, and so on which makes me dunno how to answer it. I swear that if you pull 100 students to ask that kind of questions, 98 of them sure don't know. Who will give a damn to know this kind of things. Their purpose is just to study well and get good result and get the damn cert and find a good job.
The most stupidest thing I've ever done is when they asked me whether do I have anything to say to them, and I can't even think a single reason to back up myself. WTF!!! Then I ended the interview in just less than 10 minutes. I'm really a fool!!! stupid!!!
The most I angry about myself is when I come out of the room, those idea of answering or back up myself just come out just like that!! Like I've should have say that I've been so keen to learn this Korean culture and language, I've joined NS before and independent is not a problem for me, I've should have shown my basic korean language skills, and bla bla bla bla...
WTF!!!
Ish. I'm so damn angry of myself. Why can't I think of something more convincing to answer them and why does those idea need to come to my brain so late??? WHY????
Can't it run through my mind earlier when I'm doing the interview??
I'm really damn sad of this. It's proven now that luck doesn't stay by my side. I've never have luck in my life. Never once, luck stick with me. I really wanted to go. I can see that out of the people who got to interviewed, I'm the most sincere to go for the programme and study. From our conversations before the interview, all they say is for fun, for travelling and so on. It's not about study and get to know their culture.
Haiz... Why I just need to screwed up every chance I met?? I'm such an idiot. IDIOT!!!!!
Yesterday went to PJ for the interview of study trip to Korea and I messed up/ screwed up the whole interview!!!
Actually I've already forgotten about the whole study trip thingy because the staff didn't call me the day before and ask me to go for the interview. Out of a sudden, they called me in the morning of the interview day and ask me to go for the interview. I was actually sleeping that time and I got so damn happy that I was chosen to go for the interview. I ask them how many people were chosen for this interview, and they say 4 people from the Klang Valley which means 4 from the PJ, Setapak and Sg Long campus and I was 1 of the lucky 4!!! I've become more happy!! I even screamed out that gives my mom a shocked. And it makes me totally cannot sleep back.
I really wanted to go to Korea so badly. Now, there's a chance appear in front of me sure I will grab it. But I've screwed it!!!
The interview, I thought it should be asking about the reasons why I wanted to join this study programme and so on but it turns out to be asking the damn UTAR stuff like who's the president, who's the dean of FAM, when did UTAR established, how many courses did FAM offer, and so on which makes me dunno how to answer it. I swear that if you pull 100 students to ask that kind of questions, 98 of them sure don't know. Who will give a damn to know this kind of things. Their purpose is just to study well and get good result and get the damn cert and find a good job.
The most stupidest thing I've ever done is when they asked me whether do I have anything to say to them, and I can't even think a single reason to back up myself. WTF!!! Then I ended the interview in just less than 10 minutes. I'm really a fool!!! stupid!!!
The most I angry about myself is when I come out of the room, those idea of answering or back up myself just come out just like that!! Like I've should have say that I've been so keen to learn this Korean culture and language, I've joined NS before and independent is not a problem for me, I've should have shown my basic korean language skills, and bla bla bla bla...
WTF!!!
Ish. I'm so damn angry of myself. Why can't I think of something more convincing to answer them and why does those idea need to come to my brain so late??? WHY????
Can't it run through my mind earlier when I'm doing the interview??
I'm really damn sad of this. It's proven now that luck doesn't stay by my side. I've never have luck in my life. Never once, luck stick with me. I really wanted to go. I can see that out of the people who got to interviewed, I'm the most sincere to go for the programme and study. From our conversations before the interview, all they say is for fun, for travelling and so on. It's not about study and get to know their culture.
Haiz... Why I just need to screwed up every chance I met?? I'm such an idiot. IDIOT!!!!!
Monday, May 11, 2009
Finally~
Yeap~ Finally~
Finally, today I finish all my last final main papers. I feel kind of relief actually. But I know I'm sure gonna sit for the supplementary papers >.<
Anyway, I feel the urge to blog in here about my feelings for today.
It's been 4 years for those who have been with me during the Pre-U days. I wanna thank all my friends who have been with me through all the thick and thin. From the very first time we stick together till now. It's always been you guys who supported me and some "influence" me... Hahaha... The bad influence =.= Chiew Ping, Christine, Apple, Stella, Su Shan, Rui Shan, Fei Ling, Jason (Ah Suk), Vino, Yik Mian, Robson, Nikita, Sheena, Pam, Chiew Chiao, Chiew Ling, Wei Shia, Mei Shi, Wei Jie, Hoi Yew, Ling Ling (300), Joanna, Mun Yee, Shu Hui, Yoke Peng, Pam, Sze Mei, Jing Chen, Li Mun, Ai Leng... (Still have anybody I didn't mention??? Sorry that I forget to mention your name. Do remind me ler...) I'm really grateful to all of you.
And I'm really wanna say thank you to my crazy housemates whom we live together for 3 months. It's been the most enjoyable 3 months with you all although you all go clubbing after i move out >.< NOT FAIR!!!!! Lols~ But I'm truly happy get to live with you guys especially my pretty room mate, Chiew Ping. She bear alot when we stay in 1 room. Hehe...
And my Sifus, Chiew Chiao and Chiew Ling (Nana). Thanks a million for teaching those calculus. If not been you 2, I think I'm still suffering with the calculations, accountings, maths and those crazy numbers and formulas. Thank you sincerely from my heart. Apple Jie~ thank you for your craziness. Su Shan and Fei Ling (Fei Fei)~ Thanks for your calmness and studious mood. It does affect me you know?? And thanks to the cooks in the house, Fei Fei and Nana for your delicious and yummy homemade dishes. Oh~ And Moon, our beloved housemate that are always so fashionable, good chatter and joker. Thanks for making my every day in the 3 months full of excitements.
My 3 years Uni friends, Shiau Kuan, Bee Theng, Siew Mun, Sze Min, Yue Wen, Wei Hong, Kah Fai, Albee, Pui Kuen, Choe Wah, Shieh Yee, Celine, Hui Sin (tomato), Cheh Sin, Winnie, Li Ling, Zhen Ning, erm... did I left out anyone?? I think... Nope~ Thanks for the fun and excitement we had in the 3 years of together. Thank you very much. I'm really happy that we are classmates for 3 whole years. I'm really grateful with all of your companion.
The last dinner we had together just now was the yummiest. I will never ever forget the taste of it. Feels like we've been a close family after all these years. Feels like doesn't wanna be apart from you guys. I'm so gonna miss you all.
After come back from dinner, suddenly my mind flashback to the older days. My mind keep playing the things happen this past 4 years scene. It makes me cried. I feel kinda sad right now because we're gonna part for our own ways. But I still hope all the best for your all future undertakings.
Organisors!!!! Please organise gatherings!!!
Dunno what to say anymore. Thank you for all of your caringness and friendship. Do hope to keep in touch with you all so our bond will not loose. Gonna miss you all. Muacks!!!
Finally, today I finish all my last final main papers. I feel kind of relief actually. But I know I'm sure gonna sit for the supplementary papers >.<
Anyway, I feel the urge to blog in here about my feelings for today.
It's been 4 years for those who have been with me during the Pre-U days. I wanna thank all my friends who have been with me through all the thick and thin. From the very first time we stick together till now. It's always been you guys who supported me and some "influence" me... Hahaha... The bad influence =.= Chiew Ping, Christine, Apple, Stella, Su Shan, Rui Shan, Fei Ling, Jason (Ah Suk), Vino, Yik Mian, Robson, Nikita, Sheena, Pam, Chiew Chiao, Chiew Ling, Wei Shia, Mei Shi, Wei Jie, Hoi Yew, Ling Ling (300), Joanna, Mun Yee, Shu Hui, Yoke Peng, Pam, Sze Mei, Jing Chen, Li Mun, Ai Leng... (Still have anybody I didn't mention??? Sorry that I forget to mention your name. Do remind me ler...) I'm really grateful to all of you.
And I'm really wanna say thank you to my crazy housemates whom we live together for 3 months. It's been the most enjoyable 3 months with you all although you all go clubbing after i move out >.< NOT FAIR!!!!! Lols~ But I'm truly happy get to live with you guys especially my pretty room mate, Chiew Ping. She bear alot when we stay in 1 room. Hehe...
And my Sifus, Chiew Chiao and Chiew Ling (Nana). Thanks a million for teaching those calculus. If not been you 2, I think I'm still suffering with the calculations, accountings, maths and those crazy numbers and formulas. Thank you sincerely from my heart. Apple Jie~ thank you for your craziness. Su Shan and Fei Ling (Fei Fei)~ Thanks for your calmness and studious mood. It does affect me you know?? And thanks to the cooks in the house, Fei Fei and Nana for your delicious and yummy homemade dishes. Oh~ And Moon, our beloved housemate that are always so fashionable, good chatter and joker. Thanks for making my every day in the 3 months full of excitements.
My 3 years Uni friends, Shiau Kuan, Bee Theng, Siew Mun, Sze Min, Yue Wen, Wei Hong, Kah Fai, Albee, Pui Kuen, Choe Wah, Shieh Yee, Celine, Hui Sin (tomato), Cheh Sin, Winnie, Li Ling, Zhen Ning, erm... did I left out anyone?? I think... Nope~ Thanks for the fun and excitement we had in the 3 years of together. Thank you very much. I'm really happy that we are classmates for 3 whole years. I'm really grateful with all of your companion.
The last dinner we had together just now was the yummiest. I will never ever forget the taste of it. Feels like we've been a close family after all these years. Feels like doesn't wanna be apart from you guys. I'm so gonna miss you all.
After come back from dinner, suddenly my mind flashback to the older days. My mind keep playing the things happen this past 4 years scene. It makes me cried. I feel kinda sad right now because we're gonna part for our own ways. But I still hope all the best for your all future undertakings.
Organisors!!!! Please organise gatherings!!!
Dunno what to say anymore. Thank you for all of your caringness and friendship. Do hope to keep in touch with you all so our bond will not loose. Gonna miss you all. Muacks!!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Flunk A Paper!!!
Haih~
I'm so sure that I really flunk the very first paper which is Corporate Governance. What to do?? Who ask me didn't study and memorise the things that didn't come out =.= and somemore go write the answers at the wrong question =.=
Really stupid >.<
Haih~
Last semester already and this is the last finals for me. Really don't have the mood to study at all!!!! After 3 years of the same routine, I've got bored. After 3 months i heard the word final again and sit for the exams. It feels like time flies by really fast and now, it's the end of the 3 years of studies.
And my CGPA SUFFERS!!!!! It drops like hell and now it's just 2.4 something. And now I've flunk that CG paper, need to sit for supplementary paper which the highest grade I can get is C equavailent to 2.0 =.= I'm sure that my coursework did quite well and if I put more effort in it, I might get a B or even an A!!! Now, I think it will drop again thanks to the supplementary paper.
Haih~
What is going on with me?? Why can't i just concentrate and memorise things?? I've got so lazy and my mind is not working!!!
Haih~
I'm so sure that I really flunk the very first paper which is Corporate Governance. What to do?? Who ask me didn't study and memorise the things that didn't come out =.= and somemore go write the answers at the wrong question =.=
Really stupid >.<
Haih~
Last semester already and this is the last finals for me. Really don't have the mood to study at all!!!! After 3 years of the same routine, I've got bored. After 3 months i heard the word final again and sit for the exams. It feels like time flies by really fast and now, it's the end of the 3 years of studies.
And my CGPA SUFFERS!!!!! It drops like hell and now it's just 2.4 something. And now I've flunk that CG paper, need to sit for supplementary paper which the highest grade I can get is C equavailent to 2.0 =.= I'm sure that my coursework did quite well and if I put more effort in it, I might get a B or even an A!!! Now, I think it will drop again thanks to the supplementary paper.
Haih~
What is going on with me?? Why can't i just concentrate and memorise things?? I've got so lazy and my mind is not working!!!
Haih~
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Feeling Much Better~
After yesterday outing (9 March) with Michelle, Esther, Jing Yin, Marcus, Junho, Chloe, Lilo, Blurry, and Vic, I'm feeling much better. I didn't think so much of it.
Since Esther and Jing Yin ride in my car, I can't stop laughing with till we in the the KTM, LRT, in Michelle car, at Daorae, at 1 Utama, in the cinema, and in Jun's car. Yesterday I really had a great laugh especially in the cinema when we (me, Esther, Jing Yin, Marcus, and Junho) watched "Love Matters". I really laughed my heart out for the 2 hours in there.
I'm a person who does not like to show my unhappy face to people or at least I will try to act cool or just nothing without any smile. That's why I'm too secretive. I like to hide my true feelings.
Anyway, I won't think too much about it anymore. I still need to live my life. I don't want to get depress and later on kill myself like what the korean actress did. What a pity. Now, what I need is to release those damn thing out like what I did yesterday, laugh all day!!! Laugh away my pain, my unhappiness.
Since Esther and Jing Yin ride in my car, I can't stop laughing with till we in the the KTM, LRT, in Michelle car, at Daorae, at 1 Utama, in the cinema, and in Jun's car. Yesterday I really had a great laugh especially in the cinema when we (me, Esther, Jing Yin, Marcus, and Junho) watched "Love Matters". I really laughed my heart out for the 2 hours in there.
I'm a person who does not like to show my unhappy face to people or at least I will try to act cool or just nothing without any smile. That's why I'm too secretive. I like to hide my true feelings.
Anyway, I won't think too much about it anymore. I still need to live my life. I don't want to get depress and later on kill myself like what the korean actress did. What a pity. Now, what I need is to release those damn thing out like what I did yesterday, laugh all day!!! Laugh away my pain, my unhappiness.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Too Secretive???
Just like the post title: Too Secretive???
I'm asking myself this for many many times. But the answers is always "YES". Yes, I'm a secretive person because to me, it's really hard for me to open up myself to people because I'm scared that in the end I will get hurt. This really happen a lot to me.
There's this incident happen to me on my birthday. Yeah!! It's on my birthday. I've got beaten up like hell by my mom because of the misunderstanding. She don't even understand me. She never think of what I'm facing, feels and all those. For the first time in history, I called my dad. When I heard his voice, I directly break down. I can't stopped crying. I try to explain all those misunderstanding things to him in between my tears. I can't even talk properly. He keep asking me to calm down, talk properly but I can't. He ask me to hung up first and will call back later. By the time he calls back, I've already calm down but I start to cry again. This time I manage to explain to him. He say that I'm too secretive. I always hide myself in my room. Don't want to tell anything to them. I just can't tell them anything because I know they will object. How to tell them when I already know the result?? However, this won't last long and now we're back to normal. Normal means they still don't understand me.
Then, in friendship. I really heart break with this. I always feels it. I feel that I don't have friends. In terms of close friend. After I rethink about this matter again, suddenly I remember my post in my friendster's blog. So, I will be copying the whole thing to here because I lazy to write the whole thing again because it's the same thing. Same thing I wanna post now with about 6 months ago.
From Friendster's Blog. Date August 6, 2008
I’M TIRED. I’M DAMN DARN TIRED!!!!!!
I HATE TO FOLLOW OTHER PPL’S FLOW. I HATE TO GET BLAMED. I HATE BEING ACCUSED. I HATE BEING HATE!!!!!
I DUNNO WAT’S GOING ON WITH MY LIFE. FOR 21 YEARS OF LIVING IN THIS SO CALLED PLANET EARTH, I’M SUFFERING. HAD ANYONE NOTICE THIS?? NO RITE. NOT EVEN MY OWN FAMILY MEMBERS. THEY JUST DUNNO ANYTHING BECOZ ALL THIS WHILE I KEEP IT TO MYSELF. AND NOW I’M DARN HURT.
MY LIFE IS BEING FATED WITH NO CLOSE FRIENDS. WAT THE HECK!! WAT THE HECK WITH THIS?? I’M NOT GREEDY AT ALL. I JUST WAN 1 CLOSE FRIEND WHO CAN UNDERSTAND ME, SOMEONE I CAN TALK MY HEART OUT N SOMEONE I TRUST. IS IT I’M WRONG??
U KNOW. SOMETIMES I REALLY JEALOUS OF OTHER PPL. THEY GOT PPL TO CELEBRATE BIRTHDAY WITH AND MANY SURPRISES. WAT I’VE GOT?? I’M TIRED OF GETTING PPL’S ATTENTION. I’M TIRED OF IT N I’M SICK OF IT.
I HAD SOME NITES CRYING WHEN I THINK OF WHY I’VE GOT NO TRUE FRIENDS. IS IT I’M TOO UGLY. IS IT I’M A MONSTER THT’S Y NO PPL WAN TO BE FRIEND WITH ME. EVEN WHEN I’M WRITING THIS SHIT OUT I’M CRYING. LAST TIME I GOT A GAL WHO DIRECTLY REJECT TO BE MY FRIEND. HAH! SHE’S THE 1ST PERSON I KNOW WHEN I GET INTO PRIMARY SCHOOL AND SHE TOLD ME THT AFTER A FEW MONTHS. SO, I’M THT SCARY HUH?
THIS ALL REALLY BREAKS MY HEART. I ADY CAN’T ENDURE IT. I HATE TO GO GET ATTENTION FROM PPL HOPING THT THEY NOTICE THT I DO EXIST. I’M TIRED OF IT. I’M SICK OF IT. WHY MUST I BE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS WANNA GO GET THE ATTENTION?? CAN’T THEY JUST NOTICE ME AND CARE FOR ME??? AM I ASKING TOO MUCH???
I DON’T CARE ANYMORE. I DUN WAN TO DO THIS TIRING STUFF WHICH HURTS ME FOR 21 YEARS. SO WAT?? NO FRENS "ZAO" NO FRENS LA. I DUN CARE ADY. I’M SICK OF IT. I’M DARN SICK OT IT.
That's the freaking post I blogged 6 months ago. This year, however, I've got my first birthday surprises from my friend who we knew for 4 years. I really thank her for giving me that surprises. That FIRST surprise happen in my life.
Other than that, I don't think I belong to this world. All I want is just to have the feel of belongingness. Feels that I'm belong to this society, to this world, to this planet. Is it I'm asking too much??? If I can't even find 1 person who is true to me, close with me and understands me, I think I won't be too secretive anymore because this person will understands me inside out. But this person just don't exist.
Am I lonely?? Yeah. I am lonely. But what can I do? Nobody understands me because I'm too secretive. THAT'S BULLSHIT!!! People can understands me even if I'm too secretive because only true friends will never take that as excuses. They will understand me no matter what, whether I'm secretive or not.
I really sick of this damn matter.
I'm asking myself this for many many times. But the answers is always "YES". Yes, I'm a secretive person because to me, it's really hard for me to open up myself to people because I'm scared that in the end I will get hurt. This really happen a lot to me.
There's this incident happen to me on my birthday. Yeah!! It's on my birthday. I've got beaten up like hell by my mom because of the misunderstanding. She don't even understand me. She never think of what I'm facing, feels and all those. For the first time in history, I called my dad. When I heard his voice, I directly break down. I can't stopped crying. I try to explain all those misunderstanding things to him in between my tears. I can't even talk properly. He keep asking me to calm down, talk properly but I can't. He ask me to hung up first and will call back later. By the time he calls back, I've already calm down but I start to cry again. This time I manage to explain to him. He say that I'm too secretive. I always hide myself in my room. Don't want to tell anything to them. I just can't tell them anything because I know they will object. How to tell them when I already know the result?? However, this won't last long and now we're back to normal. Normal means they still don't understand me.
Then, in friendship. I really heart break with this. I always feels it. I feel that I don't have friends. In terms of close friend. After I rethink about this matter again, suddenly I remember my post in my friendster's blog. So, I will be copying the whole thing to here because I lazy to write the whole thing again because it's the same thing. Same thing I wanna post now with about 6 months ago.
From Friendster's Blog. Date August 6, 2008
I’M TIRED. I’M DAMN DARN TIRED!!!!!!
I HATE TO FOLLOW OTHER PPL’S FLOW. I HATE TO GET BLAMED. I HATE BEING ACCUSED. I HATE BEING HATE!!!!!
I DUNNO WAT’S GOING ON WITH MY LIFE. FOR 21 YEARS OF LIVING IN THIS SO CALLED PLANET EARTH, I’M SUFFERING. HAD ANYONE NOTICE THIS?? NO RITE. NOT EVEN MY OWN FAMILY MEMBERS. THEY JUST DUNNO ANYTHING BECOZ ALL THIS WHILE I KEEP IT TO MYSELF. AND NOW I’M DARN HURT.
MY LIFE IS BEING FATED WITH NO CLOSE FRIENDS. WAT THE HECK!! WAT THE HECK WITH THIS?? I’M NOT GREEDY AT ALL. I JUST WAN 1 CLOSE FRIEND WHO CAN UNDERSTAND ME, SOMEONE I CAN TALK MY HEART OUT N SOMEONE I TRUST. IS IT I’M WRONG??
U KNOW. SOMETIMES I REALLY JEALOUS OF OTHER PPL. THEY GOT PPL TO CELEBRATE BIRTHDAY WITH AND MANY SURPRISES. WAT I’VE GOT?? I’M TIRED OF GETTING PPL’S ATTENTION. I’M TIRED OF IT N I’M SICK OF IT.
I HAD SOME NITES CRYING WHEN I THINK OF WHY I’VE GOT NO TRUE FRIENDS. IS IT I’M TOO UGLY. IS IT I’M A MONSTER THT’S Y NO PPL WAN TO BE FRIEND WITH ME. EVEN WHEN I’M WRITING THIS SHIT OUT I’M CRYING. LAST TIME I GOT A GAL WHO DIRECTLY REJECT TO BE MY FRIEND. HAH! SHE’S THE 1ST PERSON I KNOW WHEN I GET INTO PRIMARY SCHOOL AND SHE TOLD ME THT AFTER A FEW MONTHS. SO, I’M THT SCARY HUH?
THIS ALL REALLY BREAKS MY HEART. I ADY CAN’T ENDURE IT. I HATE TO GO GET ATTENTION FROM PPL HOPING THT THEY NOTICE THT I DO EXIST. I’M TIRED OF IT. I’M SICK OF IT. WHY MUST I BE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS WANNA GO GET THE ATTENTION?? CAN’T THEY JUST NOTICE ME AND CARE FOR ME??? AM I ASKING TOO MUCH???
I DON’T CARE ANYMORE. I DUN WAN TO DO THIS TIRING STUFF WHICH HURTS ME FOR 21 YEARS. SO WAT?? NO FRENS "ZAO" NO FRENS LA. I DUN CARE ADY. I’M SICK OF IT. I’M DARN SICK OT IT.
That's the freaking post I blogged 6 months ago. This year, however, I've got my first birthday surprises from my friend who we knew for 4 years. I really thank her for giving me that surprises. That FIRST surprise happen in my life.
Other than that, I don't think I belong to this world. All I want is just to have the feel of belongingness. Feels that I'm belong to this society, to this world, to this planet. Is it I'm asking too much??? If I can't even find 1 person who is true to me, close with me and understands me, I think I won't be too secretive anymore because this person will understands me inside out. But this person just don't exist.
Am I lonely?? Yeah. I am lonely. But what can I do? Nobody understands me because I'm too secretive. THAT'S BULLSHIT!!! People can understands me even if I'm too secretive because only true friends will never take that as excuses. They will understand me no matter what, whether I'm secretive or not.
I really sick of this damn matter.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Crazy Gathering!!!
Yeap!!! Had a fun day with the K-Workers gang a.k.a "The Lung Gang" last Saturday, 21st February 2009 at Times Square. We did nothing much or should I say I'm the only one who are the blur queen of the day?? XD I think it should be the effect of drinking the nutrition shake because I just had that and head out to my destination.
Well, I reach there around 2 pm (psst... already late for 2 hours >.<). Rang up Abby and ask where are they. She say they are at the cinema ticketing counter. So, I directly dash there. Reach there and directly saw Abby, Sin Yin and Shu Yee. I sneakily sneak up to them and put my arm around Shu Yee. Then, only they notice me. Hehe..
KJ was lining up to buy the tickets and that Aaron went to woo gals. He left his buddy there lining up all by himself. Such a shame on you... XD After that, we went for window shopping. We went to Body Shop first. And OMG!!! There's this sales promoter... The first time I saw "him/her" I was like... "OKAY~ She's a guy." But when "he" open "his" mouth... "his" voice is soft like a lady. Unfortunately, when "his" colleague ask "him" things, "his" man voice popping out. Hahahaha... Actually I really feel that it is funny because since he ady pretend a lady's voice at first, why don't he just keep on pretending. I was totally gonna burst out laughing there but I just withstand it. It will be rude if I laugh and to show that I'm not discriminating "his" type. I'm still ok with "them" because I met a few before when I work at Genting. So, it's nothing for me.
Karen join us after we left Body Shop. We went to elianto because I wanted to buy the nail polish remover. And the "Lung Gang" was in action again. That Aaron put on the nail varnish, a light blue one (I only notice that when we want to go into the cinema hall). They just joke around and keep lung-ing here and there and I wasn't noticing them at all. I was hungry to death by that time but I still need to wait for another hour. By that time, I already no energy. We still walk around to see the shoes. I need to buy a pair of heels!!!! Gosh... but in the end i'm back home with empty handed >.<
When the clock strike 4 pm, I directly say to them that I wanna eat already. Beh tahan. So, we went to Gasoline. And you know what?? The "Lung Gang" was in action again. OMG!!! We are the certified certified (double certified) lung people especially Aaron and KJ!!! Both of them really unstoppable!!!!
After that, we went to watch movie. Talking bout the movie, we watched "Look For A Star" acted by Andy Lau and Shu Qi. Actually this movie is not that bad. It's funny in the first half and romantic for the next half part. For me, I will rate it.... a 6/10. I rate it 6 because it's funny and the most romantic part is Andy's chaffeur's love confession. I did tear up in that part. Really touching. Overall, it's a bit boring and not worth RM 11.
After the movie, we all headed back to our own home sweet home ^^
Below are the pictures taken on that gathering. Enjoy~
Well, I reach there around 2 pm (psst... already late for 2 hours >.<). Rang up Abby and ask where are they. She say they are at the cinema ticketing counter. So, I directly dash there. Reach there and directly saw Abby, Sin Yin and Shu Yee. I sneakily sneak up to them and put my arm around Shu Yee. Then, only they notice me. Hehe..
KJ was lining up to buy the tickets and that Aaron went to woo gals. He left his buddy there lining up all by himself. Such a shame on you... XD After that, we went for window shopping. We went to Body Shop first. And OMG!!! There's this sales promoter... The first time I saw "him/her" I was like... "OKAY~ She's a guy." But when "he" open "his" mouth... "his" voice is soft like a lady. Unfortunately, when "his" colleague ask "him" things, "his" man voice popping out. Hahahaha... Actually I really feel that it is funny because since he ady pretend a lady's voice at first, why don't he just keep on pretending. I was totally gonna burst out laughing there but I just withstand it. It will be rude if I laugh and to show that I'm not discriminating "his" type. I'm still ok with "them" because I met a few before when I work at Genting. So, it's nothing for me.
Karen join us after we left Body Shop. We went to elianto because I wanted to buy the nail polish remover. And the "Lung Gang" was in action again. That Aaron put on the nail varnish, a light blue one (I only notice that when we want to go into the cinema hall). They just joke around and keep lung-ing here and there and I wasn't noticing them at all. I was hungry to death by that time but I still need to wait for another hour. By that time, I already no energy. We still walk around to see the shoes. I need to buy a pair of heels!!!! Gosh... but in the end i'm back home with empty handed >.<
When the clock strike 4 pm, I directly say to them that I wanna eat already. Beh tahan. So, we went to Gasoline. And you know what?? The "Lung Gang" was in action again. OMG!!! We are the certified certified (double certified) lung people especially Aaron and KJ!!! Both of them really unstoppable!!!!
After that, we went to watch movie. Talking bout the movie, we watched "Look For A Star" acted by Andy Lau and Shu Qi. Actually this movie is not that bad. It's funny in the first half and romantic for the next half part. For me, I will rate it.... a 6/10. I rate it 6 because it's funny and the most romantic part is Andy's chaffeur's love confession. I did tear up in that part. Really touching. Overall, it's a bit boring and not worth RM 11.
After the movie, we all headed back to our own home sweet home ^^
Below are the pictures taken on that gathering. Enjoy~
Monday, February 16, 2009
Thesis Submition
Finally!!! Finally!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today, Monday, 16th February 2009, we finally submit our final year project a.k.a thesis at 12 pm!!! Another big relieve for me and my groupmates as well as the whole BBA course Y3S3 students.
It was a really nerve wrecking process =.= The coordinator/ collector for the thesis makes the whole atmosphere so tense and the process of submitting the thesis was way too formal. He keep ask us "You confirm?" and we keep checking the signatures and forms again and again.
We were so happy that we finally submit our work and even plan to have a celebration at Jogoya *wink wink* That is just my suggestion and it all need to depends on my team mates also.
Although we solve 1 problem, there are still many disasters following behind. Every week had midterms, assignments need to submit next week and the following week and so on. Oh yeah, don't forget the presentations. All I can say is "I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME!!!!!!!". Wish that I got more time!!!
Today, Monday, 16th February 2009, we finally submit our final year project a.k.a thesis at 12 pm!!! Another big relieve for me and my groupmates as well as the whole BBA course Y3S3 students.
It was a really nerve wrecking process =.= The coordinator/ collector for the thesis makes the whole atmosphere so tense and the process of submitting the thesis was way too formal. He keep ask us "You confirm?" and we keep checking the signatures and forms again and again.
We were so happy that we finally submit our work and even plan to have a celebration at Jogoya *wink wink* That is just my suggestion and it all need to depends on my team mates also.
Although we solve 1 problem, there are still many disasters following behind. Every week had midterms, assignments need to submit next week and the following week and so on. Oh yeah, don't forget the presentations. All I can say is "I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME!!!!!!!". Wish that I got more time!!!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
The Freaky Friday
Last Friday was a crazy day!!! I've got midterm test in the afternoon at 2.30 - 3.30 pm. So, I study and revise from 8 am in the morning. However, being a sleepy head, I always wake up a few minutes then sleep a few minutes. This carried until 10 am when I realise I've got a little time left. I try my hardest to keep myself awake and revised all the notes. 2.00 pm head to University for the test.
After the test, I forgot that I need to have discussion with my group and I already promise to meet Jing Yin at South lobby. So, I directly sms Jing Yin to wait a while for me because it was just for a while. However, my other group members need to settle a few things first and they were late. So, Jing Yin don't blame me, BLAME THEM XD... Sorry to make you wait for more than an hour and you headed back yourself >.< At Jing Yin's house, my yobo, Esther cooked ddokbogi on that day. As promise, I will go and try her ddokbogi. The ddokbogi look so nice. Even you just look at it, you will drool. Don't believe??? Just take a look at it.....
After the test, I forgot that I need to have discussion with my group and I already promise to meet Jing Yin at South lobby. So, I directly sms Jing Yin to wait a while for me because it was just for a while. However, my other group members need to settle a few things first and they were late. So, Jing Yin don't blame me, BLAME THEM XD... Sorry to make you wait for more than an hour and you headed back yourself >.< At Jing Yin's house, my yobo, Esther cooked ddokbogi on that day. As promise, I will go and try her ddokbogi. The ddokbogi look so nice. Even you just look at it, you will drool. Don't believe??? Just take a look at it.....
The ddokbogi that Esther cooked.
Look nice right??? That big oval object is a hard boiled egg ^^
Unfortunately, the ddokbogi were TOO chewable. Jing Yin and I questioned her bout this. She say she already cooked it for a long time and before I reached their house she pour it back into the saucepan and cooked another 15 minutes but the ddokbogi still the same. No choice, we had to eat the 600 gram ddokbogi within just the three of us. Actually, the first piece I ate was actually very nice as I don't like to eat ddokbogi that is too soft and it will stick onto my teeth and gum. However, the more I eat, the more I need to chew. I chew till no energy already and I was so full. From one hill, we eat till it was flat. Then, just left a few pieces. The three of us eat till cannot even eat another piece. The remaining few pieces, Esther had to throw it away. I think the cost for this ddokbogi meal cost us around RM 20++. Expensive right $.$ After that meal, we banned ddokbogi >.<
After the dinner, I suggest to go sing karaoke but the price for that time was RM 40++ per person. Crazy. Then we change it to watch movie instead. Esther check the time and the next movie available was Valkyrie at 6.30 pm. That time it already 6.15 pm!! We only got 15 minutes to reach Jusco. We went out at 6.20 pm and "fly car" to Jusco. I keep telling them that cannot reach there by 6.30 pm because from my house to University also need 5 minutes. And it's near. Jusco was a bit far. Esther keep saying "Can reach one. I got confidence on you." Sweat =.= But I got shocked also. We really reach outside of Jusco before 6.30 pm but there is a big jam at the ticketing counter and in the end we still late for our movie.
Actually we did share many stories about the boys along the way. During eating the TOO chewable ddokbogi, in the car to Jusco, during Esther and Jing Yin's second dinner at the Laksa shop till we in the car heading back home. All of it was so funny but I'm very lazy to type it here. Too sleepy ady... It's 4.10 am now.
That the freaky friday that I had. Adios~ Oyasumi nasai~
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Final Year Project a.k.a Thesis is FINISHING!!!
Wow~
Finally, my group's thesis is going to be bind into the thick blue hard cover book today. Today at 10 am, we went to the printing shop to print our "baby" out. When we print it, we check it 1 by 1, page by page, number by number and it was tiring (because i'm the one who goes to and forth from the printing machine) plus panicking (scare there will have errors). Finally, it was finished printed and ready to be bind into books.
It was a big relieve for us. We have work on it for the past 4 months and now our "baby" is going to be born perfectly after a few more days. Thinking back the process that we went through, it was a memorable one with all the sweets, sour, bitter, spicy, and salty (sweats) taste. From what topic we want to do, to find the suitable journals, to write our own literature review, to distribute questionnaires (in my previous post), to collect back the questonnaires, to key in the datas, to analyze and discuss the result, to do the chapter 1 and finally, now to bind it into books. Thinking of how we cooperate and do our tasks as a team really touched my heart, from the very bottom of it. I really want to thank my team mates who had the same stress as me and still bear this whole process with me.
Thank you~
Finally, my group's thesis is going to be bind into the thick blue hard cover book today. Today at 10 am, we went to the printing shop to print our "baby" out. When we print it, we check it 1 by 1, page by page, number by number and it was tiring (because i'm the one who goes to and forth from the printing machine) plus panicking (scare there will have errors). Finally, it was finished printed and ready to be bind into books.
It was a big relieve for us. We have work on it for the past 4 months and now our "baby" is going to be born perfectly after a few more days. Thinking back the process that we went through, it was a memorable one with all the sweets, sour, bitter, spicy, and salty (sweats) taste. From what topic we want to do, to find the suitable journals, to write our own literature review, to distribute questionnaires (in my previous post), to collect back the questonnaires, to key in the datas, to analyze and discuss the result, to do the chapter 1 and finally, now to bind it into books. Thinking of how we cooperate and do our tasks as a team really touched my heart, from the very bottom of it. I really want to thank my team mates who had the same stress as me and still bear this whole process with me.
Thank you~
Monday, February 9, 2009
Bad Luck Strike For 4 Times!!!!
Omg!!!
I really dunno is it this year is my bad year?? So far in this 15 days of Chinese New Year I already slipped and fell down for 4 times already!!! Even on today. The last day of Chinese New Year!!
What is happening to me?? I'm going to change that sandal already. I slipped and fell 2 times when I'm wearing that. Going to throw that away for good. The other time was slipped and fell in the toilet and another time was tripped and fell just yesterday only.
The funny thing is the dream I heard from onnie. Yor... How can she like that. Dream of that kind of dream and the suffered one is me and not that baka. She dream that she push that baka down the stairs at the same place I was fell just now because he is annoying her.
Haiz...
Strike 4D also didn't so "leng". Hope that my luck will come to me sooner and maintain longer. I don't want to keep slipping or tripping and falling. Very pain ler T.T
I really dunno is it this year is my bad year?? So far in this 15 days of Chinese New Year I already slipped and fell down for 4 times already!!! Even on today. The last day of Chinese New Year!!
What is happening to me?? I'm going to change that sandal already. I slipped and fell 2 times when I'm wearing that. Going to throw that away for good. The other time was slipped and fell in the toilet and another time was tripped and fell just yesterday only.
The funny thing is the dream I heard from onnie. Yor... How can she like that. Dream of that kind of dream and the suffered one is me and not that baka. She dream that she push that baka down the stairs at the same place I was fell just now because he is annoying her.
Haiz...
Strike 4D also didn't so "leng". Hope that my luck will come to me sooner and maintain longer. I don't want to keep slipping or tripping and falling. Very pain ler T.T
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Complete 10 Days Course
Finally I finished the 10 days soft skill programme namely K-Worker programme. My trainer is from Internexia Sdn Bhd. Her name is Ms. Sheela. Basically this programme is teaching us Team Building skills, Interpersonal skills, Logical Reasoning skills, Creative and Innovative skills, and Presentation skills. This course is definitely tiring because it starts from 9 am to 5 pm. Really like working hours and by this time I also struggling with my final year project a.k.a thesis. Back at home already tired like hell and still need to do the thesis. I really beh tahan... However, this course is quite fun and i got to know more people and observe and experience different characters. All I want to say is thank you to all my soft skill-mate that bear the 10 days long programme with me and I really appreciate our friendship that we build during that time. I will never forget you guys and gals.
Wei Van, Sze Yeun, Pei Chin, Shu Yee, Riana, Grace, Mei Mei, Aaron, Sin Yin, Kenneth, Nak Wen, Abby, Wai Loong, Yean, William, Carmen, Soon, K.J, Stella, Rui Shan, Yan Jia, Karen, and Kisho (although we didn't really talk before and you were unable to come.. I still cherish you ^^).
Really "paiseh". After finish the course for such a long time only blog this out. Finish the course on 10th January 2009 ^^
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